Sunday, April 16, 2006

can't sleep

I can't sleep..Im just lying here on my bed and using my phone trying to think of something to type para antukin ako.

Just had my birthday last april 1st (sige na, sige na, april fool na). Tanda ko na. I can't see myself at my age right now. Parang I'm not yet matured enough to be 24. Pero what the hell! At least I'm enjoying it...Or am I?

Madami na rin nangyari sakin na I consider na "eye opener" para sakin. These are things na sobrang madami akong na-realize. It may or may not be for my good.

It is good to know and I'm very happy that my sister passed the Bar Exams (astig ka ate!). Finally, we have an attorney in our family! Sarap pakinggan diba? Ang parents ko successfull with our business, my brother is an Engineer and recently my sister became a lawyer. How about me? Eto, isang empleyado lang sa isang kumpanya. Wala akong ipagmalaki sa magulang ko. The pressure in my part is so strong. I don't what to do. Should I get a medical degree para maging doctor ako? But then it's not who I am.

I don't want to think na isa kong failure sa family ko. Nakikita ko lang kasi status ng mga kapatid ko eh. I can't help but to think talaga. Sobrang nakakapressure na hindi...Basta!! Hehe
May mga iba pang mga bagay na gusto ko pa makuwento kaso huwag na lang. Sakin na lang yun. Ang point lang is may mga pangyayari sa buhay natin na hindi maganda pero magugulat ka dahil may magaganda ka rin na mapapala.

For the good part...I get to know who really are my friends. Andun sila kahit makinig lang sa problema mo, dadamayan at tutulungan ka. Yung tipong iisipin mo sana kapatid mo na lang siya (no offense to my fellow siblings hehe). Ngayon ko narealize na kahit malunod ka na sa problema, may mga tao talagang hindi mo aasahan na iaabot ang kamay mo para sagipin ka.
Still can't sleep! Akala ko pa naman aantukin na ko nito! Oh well, I'll start counting sheeps na lang. 1...2...3...4......